I mean, he didn’t say smarter; he said a better brain. I would also love a better brain, which to me would not mean an increase in intelligence. On paper, I’m allegedly well into the gifted territory of the IQ scale, but my developmental and learning disabilities, especially my poor executive functioning, have led to me working fast food…
ayyy twice exceptional high five, how are the unfinished projects going? it’s a strange life to be both allegedly gifted and also have a learning disability, your whole life you get told how much potential you have, but you can only reliably pull off being kinda average
but i digress, yeah that’s a fair point. i guess i assumed when they said “better brain” they meant “better brain power”. i too would like a brain that can perhaps manage to do things when i want it to do things, instead of only doing things when they become emergencies
huh, that is- strange, it sounds almost as if knowing “from the start” about being twice exceptional fucked you up more than being oblivious. very few know about my IQ, and i only got tested at 18, same with adhd where i had my first suspicions at university and started trying to get diagnosed after it. what you’re describing sounds like a deeply confusing child/teenagehood. it sounds like you were kind of taught to feel helpless and doubt yourself
and oh man, i hope that the spark to do silly projects captures you again soon :( they’re so fun, best of luck <3
no don’t apologise, i know that even just writing things like that out makes the world and your mind make a bit more sense for a while. and if you don’t mind some virtual touch i’m sending you a virtual hug. i don’t know what to say what you probably haven’t thought to yourself already, but since i know the critic in your mind probably doesn’t let you hear this often then - you’re doing great, considering everything you’re doing great, keep going
yeah but now I can buy 2x the anxiety meds because of all my money
being smart is overrated, and it actively makes anxiety worse because you can come up with pretty good rationalisations and then be anxious faster
I mean, he didn’t say smarter; he said a better brain. I would also love a better brain, which to me would not mean an increase in intelligence. On paper, I’m allegedly well into the gifted territory of the IQ scale, but my developmental and learning disabilities, especially my poor executive functioning, have led to me working fast food…
ayyy twice exceptional high five, how are the unfinished projects going? it’s a strange life to be both allegedly gifted and also have a learning disability, your whole life you get told how much potential you have, but you can only reliably pull off being kinda average
but i digress, yeah that’s a fair point. i guess i assumed when they said “better brain” they meant “better brain power”. i too would like a brain that can perhaps manage to do things when i want it to do things, instead of only doing things when they become emergencies
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huh, that is- strange, it sounds almost as if knowing “from the start” about being twice exceptional fucked you up more than being oblivious. very few know about my IQ, and i only got tested at 18, same with adhd where i had my first suspicions at university and started trying to get diagnosed after it. what you’re describing sounds like a deeply confusing child/teenagehood. it sounds like you were kind of taught to feel helpless and doubt yourself
and oh man, i hope that the spark to do silly projects captures you again soon :( they’re so fun, best of luck <3
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no don’t apologise, i know that even just writing things like that out makes the world and your mind make a bit more sense for a while. and if you don’t mind some virtual touch i’m sending you a virtual hug. i don’t know what to say what you probably haven’t thought to yourself already, but since i know the critic in your mind probably doesn’t let you hear this often then - you’re doing great, considering everything you’re doing great, keep going
Brain twice as powerful but so riddled with benzos that it functions at half capacity.
but I still have more money than before